Being domestic is often stigmatized... but for me, sometimes it is all I dream of.
Waking up early to make coffee for my man, sit with him while he eats his breakfast and see him off to work, waving as he leaves, clean the house so it is spotless upon his return, watching soaps, going to the grocery store and preparing an all day meal with dessert, doing some laundry, taking my sweet time showering and pampering myself to look beautiful for him as he comes home from work....all while being 7 months pregnant and loving every second of it.
It is unfortunate, but most women would probably think I am crazy for saying I dream of a day like that. It is true, I can't wait to be barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen! My good friend in Valdosta used to tell people that all she wanted was to be a house wife and getting a college degree was just for show. I specifically recall my boss saying how tragic it was, and what a waste it was for her. What is tragic about that? Why is wanting a family and to be home such a terrible thing? I just don't understand the logic of it. And after spending the past year on an island with no grocery store, no bathtub, a maid, absolutely no spare time, and no ability to be domestic, it is all i really long for. Some days I just find myself wishing I could bake up a killer meal and dessert, equipped with a beautiful place setting with a fresh flower centerpiece and real silverware!, followed by an evening candle-lit bubble bath where we find ourselves counting the million reasons why we are perfect for each other. (I know... my tragic flaw, I dream everything in detail, as perfect as I could imagine and hold it to my ambitions of reality.)
There are times I worry is that being a doctor will take away from the thing I want the most... Family. I want to see my children grow up, never missing a milestone. I want to be a loving wife who maintains intimacy and romance until we are old and grey. I want the dog, the house, the white picket fence, the family christmas photos, the school plays and football games. I want it all... but all while being a doctor? I sure hope so. I have a simple dream. It is centered around a wholesome, beautiful marriage, that blossoms into a family and a lifetime of happiness. What I have come to realize is that the career is just something that pays the bills, the rest, the family and life of love that I build it is what is most important to me!
well back to day-dreaming for me... puts a constant smile on my face and it is a lot more fun than studying!
