sono felice.....

wow! it has been way too long!

due to my lack of motivation/energy I have a free moment to catch you up on the last couple months. Semester two has been no joke. Starting off with the schedule, no more cupcake days, the subjects become more intense and the amount of studying has increased immensely. I walked into this semester looking forward to the dawn breaking. The darkness of my life slowly subsided and my heart became whole agin. I have been blessed with an amazing ability to see the best in every situation. I thank God for giving me the strength to get through and move on. Better yet, I thank my ex for showing me how life is NOT supposed to be, and how amazing of a woman I am. He couldn't break me, and I am stronger for all he put me through.

So the page has turned, and the chapter is unveiling a tapestry of fated events that have my heart beating stronger than ever. Sono Felice..... I am happy. I have so many reasons to smile, but there is definitely a special someone who keeps that smile engrained on my face. He makes me feel like I am back in high school crushing hardcore. He tore down every wall I built around my heart, as if it had never been broken in the first place. I can feel my heart beat faster just looking into his eyes.

So many people ask me "how can you trust again?"...... "do you hate all men now?" To get the record straight... I am not afraid, and what happened to me is not indicative of the entire male population. You can't live life afraid of what might happen, because in reality, most people are innately good. Trust is EVERYTHING. Trust is something you build, and once it has been broken, it is usually beyond repair. So I have learned my lesson.... look for HONESTY, RESPECT, LOVE.... everything else will work itself out. As they say... L’amore si trova nel tuo cuore non per resarci, ma per essere condiviso..... love is in the heart not to stay, but to be shared..... can't let one bad inning take you out of the game right?

So enough about my love life... back to school.....
I just got back from Roseau where the Neuroscience Society put on a health clinic for the locals. We measured, blood glucose, blood pressure, BMI and vision and then gave them some pointers as to how they lead a healthier lifestyle. It was an awesome experience but also humbling. It is amazing how much we take for granted back in the states. For some, this is the only time they are able to get these services because they don't have the money to pay for lab tests or doctor visits. Even worse, is that someone diagnosed with diabetes can't even afford the vital tools needed to control their disease.... which could wind them up in the hospital paying even more money for something that could have been prevented in the first place. It is absolutely heartbreaking....... and for anyone who knows me, I want to help everyone. But more and more I see how that is not possible. When I finally become a doctor, I will do my best to give back and make as much of a difference as I possibly can.

On that note, mini two down... all A's and a B so far.... gotta keep it up which means time to try and regain focus!